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“From Blossoms” by Li-Young Lee

From blossoms comes
this brown paper bag of peaches
we bought from the boy
at the bend in the road where we turned toward
signs painted Peaches.

From laden boughs, from hands,
from sweet fellowship in the bins,
comes nectar at the roadside, succulent
peaches we devour, dusty skin and all,
comes the familiar dust of summer, dust we eat.

O, to take what we love inside,
to carry within us an orchard, to eat
not only the skin, but the shade,
not only the sugar, but the days, to hold
the fruit in our hands, adore it, then bite into
the round jubilance of peach.

There are days we live
as if death were nowhere
in the background; from joy
to joy to joy, from wing to wing,
from blossom to blossom to
impossible blossom, to sweet impossible blossom.

Have a blessed Easter from T&L.

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The Theology of Comma-And

In one of my writing classes in college, I was taught to avoid “comma-and” sentences, those sentences that contain two independent clauses, separated by the most-boring-of-all conjunctions: and. There’s no flavor in comma-and sentences. There’s no life! No transformation! You’re just tacking on two ideas as equals, and that’s just plain boring. (See what I did there?)

But as I’ve become a theology student, I’ve come to love comma-and sentences–not for their dullness. I still choose to avoid them in my writing. But I love comma-and sentences for the “andness” of it all.

I have a professor, Dwight, who loves the word and. I guess he has a tattoo of an ampersand on his arm or leg, to remind himself of what he calls &ing, a dichotomy that humans as God’s children experience:

We are bad, and we are good.

We are sinners, and we are saints.

We are weak, and we are strong.

For most of my life, I’ve been told that we are comma-but sentences. We are good, but we’re really bad–the latter negates the former.

Bad Theology vs. Good Theology

My boyfriend Nate and I were eating ice cream the other night when I declared to him that Rabbit at Rest is probably my favorite of the Rabbit tetralogy. (Dr. Brown was right.) I told Nate it’s because of all the humanity in the book. Rabbit’s cocaine-addicted son Nelson goes to rehab and comes back a new man, one who’s finally able to stand up to his dad:

Again, Nelson is silent. Then: “… I keep trying to love you, but you don’t really want it. You’re afraid of it, it would tie you down. You’ve been scared all your life of being tied down.” (p.379)

I wrote “Finally!” next to this passage. Finally someone is able to name what’s true about Rabbit: he’s scared. He’s a flighty rabbit who wants to just get out, to find another hole to bury into.

I told Nate that I love this book because there’s something so real and true about these characters. The plot is interesting, sure, but it’s the characters’ transformation that engulfs me, that leads me to tears by the epilogue.

Nate told me that’s why he loves Wendell Berry’s books so much–what matters is not what’s going on exactly, but who the characters are in relation to other characters, in relation to the time and place.

“See,” I said to him, “this is why I love studying this stuff.” And a pause. “I suppose this is more philosophy and literature, rather than theology and literature.” Another pause. “Or maybe that’s what good theology is–showing people’s humanity, their good and their bad, all mixed together.”

I’m proposing, then, that bad theology is recognizing only one part of our humanity–our saintliness or our selfishness–or raising one side up higher than the other. We are saints and sinners; we are comma-and sentences. One doesn’t negate the other. They dance together.

Dynamic characters are comma-and sentences

Last week I got to write a paper on a fictional couple, analyzing their marriage based on categories given in my Marriage and Family class. I chose, of course, Rabbit and Janice Angstrom, putting them easily in the category of having a chaotic, violent, and yet fabulous marriage. But the bulk of the assignment was not to name which category they were in, but to discover where they exhibit both tenderness and strength.

This was much more difficult.

It took me a while to see where this couple showed strength and tenderness in their marriage. But once I thought of a few examples, I started thinking of more and more. As I finished reading Rabbit at Rest, I noticed that this couple was often strong and tender, even in the midst of ugliness and betrayal.

All well-written, dynamic characters, like humans, are paradoxes. They carry both the good and the bad, the beautiful and the ugly, the tender and the strong. They are comma-and sentences.

(And that’s why we relate to them so well!)

About Lauren Sawyer

I am a student of theology and culture in Seattle, Washington. I love coffee, rainy days, and John Updike. Learn more about me at laurendeidra.com.

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Prophetic Artists

But [William] Blake was not a great prophetic artist just because he managed to solve his personal problems through art. Prophetic artists don’t stop at the personal. What they do, you see, is solve something for everybody by making universally compelling images of their conflicts.

-Magda Danvers in Gail Godwin’s The Good Husband, p. 26

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The be-riide of Ke-riist

I wrote this post a few months ago, but I decided not to post it until now. For one, I went a little crazy with all the John Updike at first. I don’t need to expose you to my obsessions–wink wink. Also, I just finished the fourth and final Rabbit book, Rabbit at Rest, which made me cry and cry. So now seems as good of a time as any to post this, in Rabbit’s honor I guess.

My boyfriend Nate, the skeptic, kept hounding me to come up with a better definition for this site. “What do you mean by theology?” and “How can fiction really influence your theology?”

He knows all about my independent study on the Barthian theology in Updike’s Roger’s Version. But because of how overtly theological Roger’s Version is, Nate couldn’t see how I would let more secular books inform my theology.

So I turned to another Updike book, Rabbit Is Rich (the third in the Rabbit Tetralogy). The book cites, in my opinion, one of Updike’s most crass comments on the Christian faith. I’m a pretty irreverent lady, but I was squirming when I read this.

The Bride of Christ

Rabbit’s twenty-something son Nelson and his bride-to-be come home from a pre-marital counseling session with “Soupy” the “queer” Catholic priest when Nelson explodes:

“He keeps talking about the church being the be-riide of Ke-riist. I kept wanting to ask him, Whose little bride are you? [...] I mean, it’s obscene,” Nelson insisted. “What does He do, fuck the church up the ass?” (pp. 191-192)

So what can we learn about theology from this?

A whole lot, I told Nate. Believe it or not.

Let’s deconstruct this. What is Nelson getting at? He’s commenting on Soupy’s presumed homosexuality–got that. But he’s also commenting on this language, “The Bride of Christ.” What does that mean to us anymore?

It’s all over Scripture. Isaiah cites God’s calling Jerusalem “The Bride of God,” no longer the “Forsaken Land” (Is. 62:4, NLT). Paul makes reference to the church as God’s “pure” bride (II Cor. 11:2, NLT). The language is throughout Revelation as well.

But what has the church done with the language?

For me, as a woman, I’ve been told that I need to be that pure bride for both Christ and for my future husband. As a teenager, sermon after sermon after sermon was addressed to me and other young women about being modest and for “saving myself for marriage.”

This language of being “The Bride of Christ” was so hammered into me as a young adult that I felt guilty for doing anything that resembled impurity. Back in high school, I felt sick with guilty after watching a movie in the dark with my boyfriend. We held hands but didn’t even kiss.

Nelson’s reminding us that language matters. Often in our Christian communities we use language without realizing the damage it causes others. Get a group of former fundamentalists in a room and talk to them about “evangelism” or “saving souls” or “the sinner’s prayer” and see if they don’t cringe.

So back to Nate’s question, How does fiction inform or influence my theology? It challenges me to look at phrases so well-established in my vernacular and hear them through another person’s ears.


Similar Post:

Whenever theology touches science, it gets burned” (thoughts on Updike’s Roger’s Version)

About Lauren Sawyer

I am a student of theology and culture in Seattle, Washington. I love coffee, rainy days, and John Updike. Learn more about me at laurendeidra.com.

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Fiction’s role in escaping and shaping

At church this evening, I spent some time talking with Scott, an M.Div. student at my school, about literature and theology. (I’m aware now there many are deeply interested in this topic. This isn’t just my pet.) One thing that came up in our conversation, which is what I can’t stop mulling over, is how literature does one of two things: it can either help us escape from reality or it can help shape our reality.

Escape

My boyfriend sent this meme to me a few days ago, probably for all those times I projected my anger toward book characters onto him.

My boyfriend sent this meme to me a few days ago, probably for all those times I projected my anger toward book characters onto him.

Stories are safe places. They have boundaries. If you don’t like a story, you can put it down. If you love a story, you can make it your life.

When I was in middle school, I used books as an escape from the loneliness, fear, and awkwardness of my tween years. This girl, Inesa, used to pick on me constantly, so at lunch I hid behind my copy of The Outsiders. She kept talking to me, trying to rile me up, but I ignored her with my paperback. Ponyboy’s life crisis seemed bigger than mine.

Similarly throughout high school, I hid an open book behind a stack of textbooks on my desk so I could read through Algebra, Biology, and Spanish class. Instead of finding what could be interesting about those subjects, I coasted by just looking engaged. But I was really more interested in my fiction stories.

Even now there are times I get so absorbed in fiction that I forget reality exists. Or if I experience reality again, it’s through the tinted lenses of fiction. I get frustrated with my real-life friends and family because a book character did something awful. I’ve abused my boyfriend for the sins of Rabbit Angstrom.

Fiction–whether that’s television, movies, or books–can damage. They can keep you fearful, disengaged, antisocial.

But books can also call forth life.

Shape

I’m convinced that literature has the potential to shape reality into something beautiful. Fiction lets you see into the life of another person and empathize with them. You can know drug dealers, slave owners, Bible-thumpers, 1920s flappers; you learn to empathize even with the cruelest of characters. And fiction helps you see yourself (and others) in those cruel characters–but also in the heroes.

Fiction shows us how to take action. When we aren’t ready to forgive, Scott reminded me, a character shows us how. We gain the strength to create beauty, to reconcile, to overcome, through the actions of characters.

 

Maybe fiction does both of these simultaneously. Maybe we need an escape from reality to enter into an even greater reality. Maybe we need to escape in stories to join in an even Greater Story, one that’s often forgotten in our ho-hum days of eat, drink, sleep.

About Lauren Sawyer

I am a student of theology and culture in Seattle, Washington. I love coffee, rainy days, and John Updike. Learn more about me at laurendeidra.com.

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Oliver’s “Beyond the Snow Belt”

This semester I practice Sabbath on Thursday mornings. For a few hours I leave Indiana Wesleyan University’s campus to read and write poetry at a local coffee shop or walk and reflect at a local park. During these Sabbaths I sensitize myself to the realities of sin and re-creation by rejecting those terms as abstractions. This is not an easy task.

(We have a road here called the bypass; its title is appropriate—infinitely so—for its function. Lined with billboard color and stuffed with traffic noise, the bypass bypasses the paling homes of downtown Marion, Indiana, and drowns out the terrifying silence of post-industrial squalor. I avoid the bypass as often as possible.)

As one called to the poetic office of pastor, I have learned that my soul must become “a crucible in which sacred visions are ground together with the common and at times profane experiences of human life.”* On Sabbath I orient myself in the place, the story, and the need of Marion as a placed, storied, and redeemed child of God, through the words of poets and the immediacy of presence.

Mary Oliver is my favorite companion on these Sabbath days partly because she has helped me understand their function of orientation. One of my favorite poems is “Beyond the Snow Belt”:

Over the local stations, one by one,
Announcers list disasters like dark poems
That always happen in the skull of winter.
But once again the storm has passed us by:
Lovely and moderate, the snow lies down
While shouting children hurry back to play,
And scarved and smiling citizens once more
Sweep down their easy paths of pride and welcome.

And what else might we do? Let us be truthful.
Two counties north the storm has taken lives.
Two counties north, to us, is far away,—
A land of trees, a wing upon a map,
A wild place never visited, —so we
Forget with ease each far mortality.

Peacefully from our frozen yards we watch
Our children running on the mild white hills.
This is the landscape that we understand,—
And till the principle of things takes root,
How shall examples move us from our calm?
I do not say that is not a fault.
I only say, except as we have loved,
All news arrives as from a distant land.

Objectivity precludes pain, yes, but also the capacity to love. If I bypass the brokenness of Marion, I cannot be present to her; if I cannot be present to her, then I cannot see what God sees in her; and if I cannot see what God sees in her, then there is no vision of dry bones coming together to animate belief in her—there is no capacity to love.

I wonder if Christians often fail to see the hope in people or places and speak words of judgment and death because of our failure to empathize. Admittedly, we can be masters at objective opinions.

Yet Oliver’s beautiful observation should not surprise us. Our own God refused to let humanity with all its suffering, hoping, loving, and failing become an abstraction. We are rooted in his very life. None of our news touches His ears as from a distant land.

We must become apprentices of this master of nearness and empathy: God-with-us.

 

 

* M. Craig Barnes, The Pastor as Minor Poet: Texts and Subtexts in the Ministerial Life (Grand Rapids: Wm. B. Eerdmans Publishing Co., 2009), 22.

Michael Conner

About Michael Conner

I am pursuing my vocation as a pastor-poet by studying biblical literature at Indiana Wesleyan University and reading lots of Eugene Peterson, Mary Oliver, and Walter Brueggemann.

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T&L Updates–and why I’ve been quiet

As you may have noticed, I (Lauren) haven’t written a post in, well, several weeks now. I figure you deserved a bit of an explanation and some insight into what I have been doing, what’s coming up with T&L, and so on.

I haven’t written much because I’m busy. Grad school is funny in that way–wink. But I’ve fortunately had the space to take a break, thanks to my wonderful guest bloggers, Daniel and Pat, as well as wonderful quotes by writers, dead and living.

I have a few posts up my sleeve for the upcoming month. One is an Updike post that has been written for over a month now, but as promised, I took an Updike break for your all’s sake. I also have that Vonnegut one I mentioned a few posts ago, as well as ideas for another Vonnegut one, as my boyfriend and I are reading through Cat’s Cradle right now.

Most excitingly, I have some wonderful content to share based on the study of theology and literature. Nathan Scott, Jr. wrote a ton on modern literature and religion back in the ’50s and ’60s. I found one of his books, The Broken Center, on Amazon, and it may be the most brilliant book I’ve ever read. His main thesis (at least based on what I’ve read so far) is that modern literature has to construct religion since it’s not grounded in it the way the premodernists were. Expect more on that soon!

I also anticipate a few new writers for T&L this month! A friend and former classmate Michael has a post ready to go. I’m expecting some posts from current classmates to show up soon as well. I’m so excited by the interest in this topic! Already in the month and a half this blog has existed, I’ve learned so much on this beautiful dance of theology and literature.

About Lauren Sawyer

I am a student of theology and culture in Seattle, Washington. I love coffee, rainy days, and John Updike. Learn more about me at laurendeidra.com.

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The story was not about him

“The oldest book of the Bible is supposedly the book of Job. It is a book about suffering, and it reads as though God is saying to the world, Before we get started, there’s this one thing I have to tell you. Things are going to get bad.

“Job is a good man whom God allows to be destroyed, except for his life. God allows Job’s family to be taken, along with his wealth and his health. Job calls out to God, asking why God would let this happen.

“God does not answer Job’s question. It’s as though God starts off his message to the world by explaining there are painful realities in life we cannot and will never understand. Instead, he appears to Job in a whirlwind and asks if Job knows who stops the waves on the shore or stores the snow in Wichita every winter. He asks Job who manages the constellations that reel through the night sky. [...]

“Job responds, even before his health and wealth are restored by saying, ‘All of this is too wonderful for me.’ Job found contentment and even joy, outside the context of comfort, health or stability. He understood the story was not about him, and he cared more about the story than he did about himself.”

– from “A Tree in a Story about a Forest” in A Million Miles in a Thousand Years: What I Learned While Editing My Life by Donald Miller

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“As Kingfishers Catch Fire” by Gerard Manley Hopkins

As kingfishers catch fire, dragonflies draw flame;
As tumbled over rim in roundy wells
Stones ring; like each tucked string tells, each hung bell’s
Bow swung finds tongue to fling out broad its name;
Each mortal thing does one thing and the same:
Deals out that being indoors each one dwells;
Selves — goes itself; myself it speaks and spells,
Crying Whát I dó is me: for that I came.

 

I say móre: the just man justices;
Keeps grace: thát keeps all his goings graces;
Acts in God’s eye what in God’s eye he is —
Chríst — for Christ plays in ten thousand places,
Lovely in limbs, and lovely in eyes not his
To the Father through the features of men’s faces.

I often think of Lent as a season of substitution. I am giving up something that is a part of me, to get God. I am removing entertainment, stimulants, or stress removers to allow God to provide adventure, energy, and rest. With this attitude I embrace lent with stoicism, sobriety, and expectancy. And as long as I consider Lent in this manner, I think I am bound to meet disappointment; I will inevitably fixate on whatever I am losing until I try to take it back.

The reality is, I think, that we are giving up things–things that we desire–to realize what we have already been given, and to realize that God is the giver. In the desert, Satan offered Jesus food, identity, purpose, and authority over the earth. Satan, however, did not even have the power to provide those things in a way that was true and eternal, because Jesus already HAD those things. God had already given all of these things to him. Lent, then, is to embrace the identity you’ve been given, to look at your most core, raw, and natural self, and to realize that your being is enough. Your being is the kindling with which God will create a mighty, roaring flame. Christ becomes exceedingly more beautiful when your nature becomes apart of his will.

So, come Easter day, emerge from your Lenten season as a kingfisher catches fire.

About Daniel Buckley

I am a graduate student studying english education in the deep south, and I am endlessly in love with Jesus, Flannery O' Connor, and other social pariahs.

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Wendell Berry “How to Be a Poet (To Remind Myself)”

“How To Be a Poet”
Wendell Berry

(to remind myself)

i

Make a place to sit down.
Sit down. Be quiet.
You must depend upon
affection, reading, knowledge,
skill—more of each
than you have—inspiration,
work, growing older, patience,
for patience joins time
to eternity. Any readers
who like your poems,
doubt their judgment.

ii

Breathe with unconditional breath
the unconditioned air.
Shun electric wire.
Communicate slowly. Live
a three-dimensioned life;
stay away from screens.
Stay away from anything
that obscures the place it is in.
There are no unsacred places;
there are only sacred places
and desecrated places.

iii

Accept what comes from silence.
Make the best you can of it.
Of the little words that come
out of the silence, like prayers
prayed back to the one who prays,
make a poem that does not disturb
the silence from which it came.